Billy & Hells - so good. I’m in love.

Sometimes when I’m gone the whole day… being busy with work, school, and then stressing about other things throughout the day… it’s such an amazing feeling to be home… my home. Growing up and really disliking the place that I had to call home and then after that moving across the country into another place where I felt unwelcome… but now finally being in a home where I feel at peace after a long day and get to have a good conversation with amazing people before bed… I don’t think there is anything that makes me happier than that. I will never take that for granted. I am extremely lucky.

I don’t believe in accidents. Everything happens for a reason. Really looking back at events that have occurred that have gotten me to this point… it’s really amazing to think about. I just can’t wait to begin what I’ve been working so hard for.

I am ashamed that I have been so cold to so many people, for not giving people a chance. Just anyone really… people that are constantly around me or strangers. It’s amazing what comes out of a conversation. Even when talking to someone for a short 5 minutes and leaving with a good feeling in my chest, that makes my day. Maybe I’m growing up… or maybe I’m just beginning to be a bit more reasonable.

For my 21 years of living I feel like I’ve been through a lot and learned more than others have at my age. I am pleased at my current state. There isn’t a point of wishing for more because eventually I will get it. I will.